- I'm beyond broke right now. idk how I'm gonna pay my phone bill next month. Tuition and books this quarter hit me for over $2,000 (i haven't opened up most of them btw, probably won't even have to).
- My parents don't even know how bad my money situation is. If they did, I'd have money...and every single penny of it would be regulated and dealt exactly how they'd want it to. I'd rather not put up with it and figure out what i can do on my own. I might sell Adderall again in a few weeks. We'll see.
- This not having money thing has led to a forever-dwindling shoe collection, and there couldn't be a better result. I'm realizing how much money i wasted on such a pointless "investment." Funds will certainly be allocated better in the future. I still love shoes. I'm just going to be a little smarter about the ones i choose to buy now. There's no need for me to have Air Jordan Vs in every single colorway, with multiple pairs of those same colors (unless they're white/red XIIs).
- I'm tired of being told I'm "over-qualified" or "not the candidate best fit" for *insert menial retail job here*. Granted, I'm not doing all I can to track one down, but who wouldn't be discouraged with the strikes i've been getting?
- I want to move away from home so badly. Being here for the better parts of the week don't really help much in keeping me from harboring these feelings. I really miss being able to take road trips anywhere i wanted. I've argued with my Dad everyday for the past 3 weeks...about half as much with my Mom. We don't see eye to eye on anything, but they're not willling to listen to reason. Most of the time i just stop fighting and give in. I need to start holding my ground more often.
- I hate school. The only positive i can find in it is that it keeps me from having to be at home (see above). 99% of my friends have graduated and moved on. After Natasha graduates in seven weeks, that 99% can just get bumped up to an even 100%. I tend to stick to myself in between classes. I think this group of music majors felt sorry for me or something because I'm always alone. This one girl introduced herself to me the other day, commented on my headphones, and asked if i wanted to hang out with her and talk sometimes. At first I thought she was on me, but now I'm realizing. FML haha.
- I hate engineering. There's no creativity in manipulating numbers and studying trends.I don't care how much money I'm projected to make upon graduation, or how secure my future is. It's not what i want to do. Here is my written promise to my future self: on April 24, 2010, I will be in another degree program.
- I haven't had sex in over 2 months, and it doesn't really even bother me anymore. I bet I could finish out the year and not have a problem with it. Even with guaranteed options a phone call/text away, I stay not caring. I guess i have too many other things on my plate as of lately. Max said i might as well be celibate.
- I keep dipping under 160 lbs. I'm almost positive it's because most days I skip out on lunch to make money stretch. Already not eating breakfast doesnt help either. I'm going to teach myself how to cook, and not just for special occasions.
- A friend lost my hard drive and promised to replace it. That was over a month ago. Last time i texted him he didn't respond. I need a new battery for my laptop because this current one holds no charge. Apple won't give me a new one because I have too many charge cycles in the period i've owned my laptop and it's not covered in the warranty. The palm rest area is cracking because of the magnet in the latch, and a missing screw causes my display to flicker. Cost of a new hard drive: $199.99. Cost of a new battery: $129.00. Amount of money I have to cover those: a lot less than what i need. I want this. When i get some money it's as good as copped.
- I crossed paths with Steph on Wednesday on my way to class. We exchanged quick hellos and i kept it pushing. I kinda wish I stopped and talked to her.
- Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles is probably getting canceled, and I'm genuinely disappointed. I hate cliffhangers. Just when i actually start getting into TV too. Lost is over after next season, Knight Rider was garbage, and now this. At least I still have Fringe. Knowing Fox, they'll probably cancel that too though.
- I have basically front row seats to the No Doubt Tour in July, but i'll probably have to sell them to make some money. I'm salty about the Rock the Bells 2009 line-up as well. 99% sure i'll still end up going though.
- I don't like the fact that I have all the answers for everyone else, yet i can't take my own advice.
On a much lighter note...
Finally got my hands on one of these. Probably not the smartest purchase to make right now, but im having fun with it. Shellane made the extra 8GB of space an option. Having one to play around with, and actually having one are two completely different things. I like the latter best. Notice how it complements my laptop so perfectly. It would have more company, but my white PSP has been MIA for a while now, and my DS is a POW behind enemy lines. Oh well.
